Monday, October 1, 2007

Feeling of Failure

I feel like I am failing more often than I feel like I succeed. I feel like my project timeliness keep getting extended. Where do I call a project complete? I keep asking myself, does that look okay, work okay, or even meet anybodies desire to use it? Can I even make something on the web that someone would like to use. Can I even complete something? Once I get somewhere, even more options get revealed to me that I could/should implement to make the web application better.

I am starting to understand why applications are released in versions, and why it takes so long to create an awesome application, and why an application never feels complete. I think I am coming to a realization that an internet service are never perfect or will be, especially in my eyes. I just realized, thats why everybody puts beta somewhere on the application. But on my hand, maybe I need to put alpha.

I think ultimately, my feeling of failure comes from the expectation of trying to have the application done sooner than it should be. And that causes me stress, because I know of the inadequacies the application has and the potential it could have. Most of all I think it comes from my perspective of other expectations of me and not living up to them.

This is where I learn perseverance. Can I make it?

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