Anxiety

The other day our big fridge went out. I was bummed when I heard Angie, my wife say that. So Angie moved all our food to my brother in laws across the street. I nearly got the friends approve system done that day.But I had to quit early because I was so worked up over loosing our fridge. I thought it was going to be a money drain. Lower my equity I am using to build this project another month, when I have 3 left. It worked out friends of ours had friends, that gave us a fridge. We got it, and he dented the truck doing so. I hope to help them out and fix that in the future. I don't have any extra money now. So that will have to wait. Wow Josie and Andy were gracious in helping us out get the fridge from there friends. That was a neat blessing.

I am worrying about the future more and more. I worry about loosing all that I accumulated here. Not that I could do with out our house and my truck and other things that I really don't need. Really its just stuff we are managing. I hate to have to say to my daughter that she can't have any more animals, we have to move. We could ask my Mom and Dad to keep them. But all these things come racing through the mind when you get down and things get tough. They cause me anxiety. I am learning through all of it to trust God more. I am having to persevere to get the last features built into the project while I don't feel so hot. I have to constantly ask for grace, peace, and strength to make it further. I am hoping this time in my life passes quickly. Its a challenging time for me. I have been humbled in my frailness at times.

Nevertheless, I intend to complete this project.

Beta Coming

We are racing towards beta release. We are aiming to release the beta May 31st. I am hoping to have the friends networking module done this week. I have reworked my account system. Hopefully the last week, I can concentrate on better style. I will be so excited to release our application to the public for testing. I am anxiously excited. Lots more todo, but I think I can make it.

Current lines of code: 17,041.

Friends Walls Going Up

I was thinking on my walk today, that every new module I create takes far more work and energy mentally than adding onto and even maintaining. Even adding new features is much more fun than creating something from scratch.

I have started the friends, social framework for our application. With GWT I don't think it will take me but a day to have all the walls up in the house.

Standby for inviting party.

Current Status

Project - Gone Vertical LLC
Business Partner - Joel Wright MFT
Project lines of code - 15,665
Patent - pending
Currently working on - social framework of project, integrating current feature set
Money left - $28,000 aprox, 3.5 more months worth of work for me funding me

Thank you Google!

I wanted to note a thanks to Google for their quality craftsmanship with the all there products!

Gone Vertical Framework

I am excited. I know have most of the framework complete. I will be back at adding more features, and enhancing the current set until I make it to beta, which doesn't seem to far off. I will be integrating social system into my framework which seems a bit daunting to me at the moment. I hope to move through it quickly.

I am looking forward to business planning tomorrow with Joel. Soon we will be looking for investors.

I got roughly three months left. The end of my money is close. To Patent or Bust.

Please stand by for launch :).

Provisional Patent Achieved - Wahoooo!

Gone Vertical LLC now has a provisional patent. Which is really, really excited about! We have a few more things todo before releasing the application online to the public. Like figure out how many sessions at once we can handle on the servers. I have a few more bugs, help items, features to do before releasing as well. It could take another month to two months. Hopefully sooner.

Waiting For Provisional Patent

Joel and I are waiting for our provisional patent, anxiously. We are excited about it. We are going to try to raise investment money for the project. As soon as we get the patent number, we are going to open our site up for previewing.

By the way, I am doing much better since I cut out some hours of intensified work. Basically took the weekend off. How nice was that.

Panick Attack Galore

Dang, yesterday sucked. Replaying the events. I drank coffee, delayed breakfast, drank more coffee, delayed lunch, drank some more coffee, then by 4:30pm, the panic sensation set in. I tell you what, I dread with all my being. I was on a roll before 4:30pm, pumping out code. Got the feedback widget posted to gwt-examples, and finished on my GoneVertical.com site. At the same time we are waiting for the attorney to submit the provisional patent for our project. At the same time my pictures are glitching on my home raid array. Samba glitching a read write error. (We should hear back today about our provisional patent). I am like one of those wind up toys. I start winding and winding and winding, and eventually, you wind to far, and it breaks. Well, thats what I did. I felt like screaming, wantint to run out of control. Waiting for my body to go crazy. I was crazy. I feel like just quiting everything when this happens. I felt overloaded with caffeine, excitement, disappointment, worries and the feeling of failure sets in. Like a wave, it rolled over me. It terrifying, snowballing down the crazy hill. Its a panick attack in a doctors def. But for me its the dread of my life. So looking back, I am making adjustments work schedule. But I am going to start calling it my journey.

I have been loading up on coffee, pushing hard, pumping out code. I have wrote over 13114 lines of code so far. Getting closer to beta. In any case, I am not continuing this pace, but changing ways, so I can go the distance.