Anxiety

The other day our big fridge went out. I was bummed when I heard Angie, my wife say that. So Angie moved all our food to my brother in laws across the street. I nearly got the friends approve system done that day.But I had to quit early because I was so worked up over loosing our fridge. I thought it was going to be a money drain. Lower my equity I am using to build this project another month, when I have 3 left. It worked out friends of ours had friends, that gave us a fridge. We got it, and he dented the truck doing so. I hope to help them out and fix that in the future. I don't have any extra money now. So that will have to wait. Wow Josie and Andy were gracious in helping us out get the fridge from there friends. That was a neat blessing.

I am worrying about the future more and more. I worry about loosing all that I accumulated here. Not that I could do with out our house and my truck and other things that I really don't need. Really its just stuff we are managing. I hate to have to say to my daughter that she can't have any more animals, we have to move. We could ask my Mom and Dad to keep them. But all these things come racing through the mind when you get down and things get tough. They cause me anxiety. I am learning through all of it to trust God more. I am having to persevere to get the last features built into the project while I don't feel so hot. I have to constantly ask for grace, peace, and strength to make it further. I am hoping this time in my life passes quickly. Its a challenging time for me. I have been humbled in my frailness at times.

Nevertheless, I intend to complete this project.