Scatch my Back, I'll scratch yours.

Something I battle with is how much do I give and where is the line on how much you should take?

I feel like I am giving way to much. Lots of Sundays I learn about giving and I always feel good then. But when I give at my or my families expense I don't feel its worth it. And maybe it enables the other person that is receiving.

This whole concept of giving and taking is a huge battle for me. But I feel like I am finally learning that its ok to say no and not to give all the time.

I feel that my Uncle Jim and Aunt Carla have gone the extra mile for me. They have let me setup my server room in there apartment complex in one of the 12x13 suites. They have said I can move a desk downstairs into the retail area, where I can have a storefront presence. For the server room suite, all I am paying is the utility at this time, but in essence down the road I will pay them rent when I bring in more money. But nevertheless they are putting alot of faith in me and giving me tons!! My point is, I want to do everything I can to help them out with labor of some sort and give back. I want to scratch there backs. So I have decided to give them some of my expensive security cameras, which I benefit from too, if I move my desk down to the retail area. I like that kind of trading. I think Jim and Carla see it different, they like giving too. And I think they only like giving if it helps not enables the person to grow.

Scratch my back and I will scratch yours. I like this and I often like to initiate it. But the thing is, so many people don't abide by this rule. And you have to let it wash off like water off a ducks back. But it still frustrates me that people forget about giving back.

I am going to stop giving unless I going to get something back in return, outside of the church and Jim and Carla. I am going to try that out for a while and see how it works.